Saturday
amazed
how things have turn out - quite unexpected at the end. certain things that i do not see but finally become clear to me. thinking of the directions in life - is it counselling or not? the thoughts of medicine always come into play. but being attached, makes studying medicine an impossible choice. it is afterall 4 years of studying and another 4 years of attachment. not to mention paying off the loan.
think about it. i would have thought that medicine would be over when i finished uni. but the trip to states re-ignite that passion. there was this vietnam guy, 40 yrs, and studying medicine. he had 2 kids and was going into his last year. i really admired his courage. it is very difficult to put everything down, quit your job to pursuit something like that.
when i came back, andrew suggested counselling. it was a big jump. the course is not as long - fees not as expense but there was much to consider. imagine by the time i finished my course, my friends would have gotten promotion - good pay - settled down. and I would be my 1st year as a fresh graduate. lots to think about
at the end of the day, i am really thankful for this journey that i have taken.
if not for states - my passion in medicine would not have re-ignited
if not for counselling - i would not be receptive to studying a non-business course
if not for breakups - i would not have a 2nd chance to evaluate my options.
considering the journey i have taken, all things work together for my good.
i don't bother asking if this is the calling. i am not toally sure - but if this is what god wants of me, things would be smooth.
things that i have lost and things that i have found n lost.
finally able to let go of everything and be myself.
princess maddie.
